Thankyou for all kind words/stories/support. i have made the dreadful decision to stop the pregnancy (appt in a few days). I still have no idea how i am going to cope with the emotional pain. Is the physically pain the same as a normal labour? I also still dont know if i can deal with seeing/holding my baby at the end. I feel terrible and gulity that i cant deal with having that connection as it will make it too real. Will I regret it? I have the scanned picture in my head that wont go away (i dont see what the docs see) and i am happy to hold onto this image.