sweetie labour side I can't tell you mine was very easy ....the connection will be there, as hard as it wil be hold your baby spend time with him...trust me you will cope with the emotional pain yes there will be days when you say why should I go on, why not me, these are all perfectly normal I still 5 years down the track have days where I can't stop crying, but these are few and far between now...I made a promise to my Katy to live everyday for her, to experience the unknown to enjoy life for her, to take time to smell the roses or look for animals in the clouds.

I know it sounds cliche but these are the things that got me thru my darkest hours, another thing talk to your partner talk to your family talk to your friends talk to the girls here, you have a son unfortunatly the angel in the book of life is going to write to perfect for this earth..he will alwasy watch over you live your life for him...

the one thing I can't say enough take pictures if you and your partner can't ask the nursing staff, when we had Katy I was in a state of shock as I imagine you are and we didn't take any pics nor were we asked if we wanted any, to this day it is something I regret, I have her hand and footprints and a picture in my mind of what she looked like but no pictures