Our baby girl born sleeping

[stanas]

Hi, I am also new to this forum and hope that either someone can pass on some advice to get through losing our first child or that someone can get strength from my beautiful baby girl Ava.

It also took us 12 mths to concieve and my pregnency had been smooth until I started spotting at 6 weeks. Went to ER and had scans and everything including levels were fine. Early April I started to bleed continuously and had severe cramps but another scan showed things were fine and that it was probably the placenta lying low that was causing the probs. Again sent home. After 4 weeks of non stop bleeding I began passing large clots on April 24th, after yet another scan I was put on strict bed rest (toilet privalages only) at 16 wks 4 days.

Monday 28th I had a fever and after seeing my GP was admitted to hospital. Around 3am on the Tuesday I began to pass a clear fluid which would gush out just rolling over in bed. At the time I wasn't concerned as I didn't think that waters could break so early. After some swabs and another scan in the afternoon it was confirmed that I had lost my amniotic fluid. Both our hearts broke as we were told there was nothing they or we could do but wait. We thought I would be on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy not sent home to wait to go into natural labour. (17wks)

10 days later after another scan to see what was happening, and finding there was not a drop of amniotic fluid we were induced on the Wednesday and met our beautiful baby girl Ava, on Thursday 9th May 5.20am.

I have never felt so much love for anything or anyone in my life. She was PERFECT. Even though she was 18 weeks 4 days she was a baby with tiny hands and tiny feet and weighing only 190 grams. We never even imagined the pain we would feel having to leave the hospital without her.I felt my heart break in 2. She is our little angel and will always be deep in our hearts.

Angels took our daughter away but they also let us have 4 precious hours with her.
Mummy and daddy love you so much Ava Lesley

Any words of wisdom for the cremation are more than welcome. I have no idea how we can possibly get through it.
Stanas

Ava Lesley, born 9th May 08, 18 weeks 4 days