Our Loss

[Footsteps]

im sorry for your loss.
xxx

[helle]

Mishyy, I'm so sorry for you loss. It's so completely devistating it can't even be put into words.

I recently lost our little baby angel on the 11/12 at 18 weeks.
During a monthly checkup the Dr's found that his little heart and stopped beating, i was admitted into hospital the next morning and put into labour. We're unsure as to what has happened as yet but have so far been told he had a lot of deformaties and nature just took it's course, but it's still so hard. I miss my little bump and feel completely empty, like i'm missing a limb.

My partner and I are also wanting to TTC again ASAP and I have had pangs of guilt about replacing our little one, especially when i could start TTC now if i could, (but had been advised to wait for tests to come back, and for my cycle to return to normal), even though that isn't the case at all, we love out little baby so much.

I wish you all the luck in the future for TTC, and hope you are blessed with a little baby as soon as you're ready.

xx

[Mishyy]

I'm so sorry for your losses ladies - nothing can be more painful than losing a child, unborn or not.

I have an appointment on thursday so hopefully we will get some answers as to what happened.

Giving everyone hugs.

[Lisa]

Mishy & Teagz,
I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious angesl.
If you and your DH/DF feel you want another baby... don't let other's opinions stop you for TTC. After I lost Noah I was told I could start TTC from my first regular AF cycle, but to wait a year for the mental side of it all because they wanted me to get past Noah's first anniversary before trying again.
I took on board the medical side and from my first regular AF, DH and I started TTC again. We conceived Harrison on my 3rd cycle. It was difficult at first emotionally, because in a way I felt like I was betraying Noah... and Harrison was also due 12 days before Noah's 1st anniversary. It really was a bittersweet moment when I first got that BFP. DH & I were over the moon though, and now we're blessed with the most amazing little guy! I believe that Harrison helped me through my grief as my DH & I tried for 14 months for Noah... then we lost him. We both ached for a baby that we could bring home and hold in our arms. I am happy that we had Harrison when we did, he brought joy to us after we had so much sorrow.

Thinking of you both

[tempus moriendi]

Let us know how your appointment works out.

[Mishyy]

Lisa - I'm glad you have little Harrison - Noah will never be replaced

I went for my appointment yesterday and as ithought they couldn't really tell me anything.

The bloods and stuff they took from me when it happened came back that i didn't have any infection or anything like that. The tests they did/doing on the placenta and our little angel won't be available for another 3-4 weeks and i couldn't get another appointment until the end of feb because my doctor is on holidays. so another 9 weeks or so before we find out anything even if it more than likely just the sex of our baby. We were told that 99.9% of the time a cause is not found as to why a misscarriage occurs.

We will be TTC as soon as my first AF arrives

Thanks ladies for the the replies/support etc, it means the world.

[tempus moriendi]

Glad to hear you didn't have an infection. It must be really hard to wait 3 or 4 weeks to find out the rest of your results.
Thinking about you and hope everything goes well, keep us posted.

[Angel Babies 3]

I am truely sorry to read of your loss. I too have lost a child at 16 weeks although for different reason. My heart goes out to you.
Take care,
Hugs
Debbie

[Miss.B]

Hi Mishyy,
My heart goes out to you at this very difficult time. I lost my little boy at 20 weeks and now I'm treating the problem ( fibroid ) that caused my miscarriage. My strong desire to carry a child is still very much there, althought I don't want to replace Joshua, he's my first born and my special little angel. I'll be trying again as soon as my OB gives me the green light.
Good luck on your journey hun.
Love and big hugs
Beata.

[helle]

The bloods and stuff they took from me when it happened came back that i didn't have any infection or anything like that. The tests they did/doing on the placenta and our little angel won't be available for another 3-4 weeks and i couldn't get another appointment until the end of feb because my doctor is on holidays. so another 9 weeks or so before we find out anything even if it more than likely just the sex of our baby. We were told that 99.9% of the time a cause is not found as to why a misscarriage occurs.

Sounds like the story of my life at the moment! But luckily I've managed to jag an appointment at the begining of Jan for all our tests, but it still feels like a billion years away. I can't even imagine waiting til the end of Feb!
I guess we know that it's nothing our bodies/we could have caused, as bittersweet as it is.

I hope you have a Merry Christmas and plenty of good luck for 2009!