Sorry Ive been AWOL...Ive had a shiat of a time with Wilehlm since going back to school ...he now tells me he hates me and has been kicking and hitting me for the last few days.

tonight I flipped...I feel so bad and horrible but I snapped and slapped his face while he was going off at me...I dont know why I did it....I feel horrible...just horrible. he was flipping and kicking me so hard that I picked him up...took him to his room, threw him on the bed and told him I hated him and asked how he liked it.

I havent stopped hating myself or crying since...he wont come out of his room...what have I done!!!!!

Sorry have to go...its to much atm