Sarah, have you read the article, Loving Two? https://www.bellybelly.com.au/baby/loving-two-children

Also regarding confidence to birth, I can recommend some great workshops in NSW and even some support people who would be able to help you. Ultimately the birth you choose is your decision, but it just seems to me that you feel unconfident in your body when you can have every reason to Perhaps unsupported too. Having unexperienced people with you in labour can make it more anxiety frought for mum, she looks to them for stability and reassurance, but they are too busy freaking out themselves!!!