You're definitely not alone Sarah!!!

We had always wanted our children close in age and had planned before Jacob was born, that once he turned one, we'd be TTC again. In the first few months of his life, I became more and more eager to TTC again and would have done it in a flash so we decided to start trying when he was 10 months old!

Time passed and when we started TTC (which was actually in June prior to Jacob's 1st birthday) I totally freaked out. I got really panicky about it and was worrying about the same things as you - would Jacob cope, would I cope?

Honestly, the best thing for us was to hold off on TTC for a few more months. As you know, we've just started trying again from November. So if you think about it, it took me from June until November to actually feel better about it all.

Having said that, of course I am still anxious and worried about how Jacob will cope and how I will cope, and I'm sure once I fall PG again that will be even more heightened, but I must say that I don't feel as anxious about it as I did going back a few months. I think I've had the benefit of that time to think things through and to sort some of those feelings out in my mind.