Gill, I was EXACTLY the same till I pushed little Seth out My mind would flitter back and forth from how wonderful it would be to, how can I do this to Paris. But I am so glad I did because she has someone else to love and who loves her. She has a mate.

Strangely though I don't think I'd worry the same if I went for #3 maybe its just a first time mum thing But do NOT worry you are not alone and your feelings as silly as they may seem are completely valid.

*hugs*
Cailin