Heaven, thanks for the link

I do relate to the authors feelings and I completely get your concern about having a second baby. I think the biggest shock for me was that I never even considered this before we had DD, so having these feelings of guilt and sadness knocked me for a six. I didn't expect feeling like this at all. So it's good that you recognise how you *might* feel when a second comes along and you can deal with it better. That's what I'm finding now that I acknowledged my feelings and talked to DH and family and friends about it. The sense of sadness and longingness for the old relationship I had with DS is still there, but it gets better and I still love him, if not more. And there is still room for love for DD too and DH