hunni I am not far of having number 4

It isn't common what she's experienced.

I don't love my kids any less than the other. I do however find that there are things I love about THEM and only them.

I love Jaidans love for learning, and his sweet nature, and how honest he is and so gentle.
I love Chases boisterous side, and how much he adores Ashton, and how he picks me flowers all the time.
I love how cheeky Ashton is, and the cuddles he gives, and how he will walk into ANY room and light it up with his smile and personality (ok and I love the ringlets)

I am sure there will be many things I will only love about Levi.

I will say I enjoy Ashton more than I ever enjoyed the boys. That is because when they were little (and only 14 months apart so that was hard on it's own) I was stuck in a crappy relationship and felt miserable. They were more like a chore 40% of the time which is horrible to say I had depression etc. So this time I have been a lot happier. At the end of the day though I love them all so much!

Jaidan and Chase were hard, close in age and it was a lot of work!! There were days when I thought "what the HELL have I done" but you DO have bad days and you take them with the good