Thanks guys. I guess I have to focus on how much I will be giving to DD by giving her a sibling rather than what I may be taking away (i.e. a bit of my attention). I know I definitely want more babies, it's just so hard to imagine how it will all work out.
I am also a bit worried bc if I try and imagine having another baby, if I imagine the baby to be a girl I think 'Oh, that would be nice, how cute, a sister for DD'. But if I imagine it to be a boy I think 'Hmm...not ready' and can't really imagine loving a boy like I do DD. Which is worrying bc I actually think I will have a boy next for some reason. Will I not love a boy as much?? I have no idea why I think this! Maybe it's just because I can't imagine it because I only have a girl (which is weird because I have never had a sister, I have 4 younger brothers, so I shouldn't be scared!). But I feel like I would much prefer a girl. I feel like I couldn't be as close to a boy as I am with DD. How awful of me!!
I just have to trust that things will work out. I remember before DD was born feeling sad that it wouldn't be just me and DH anymore and that we wouldn't have as much time together. I couldn't possibly have imagined how much I would love her and how it doesn't feel like she is 'intruding' on DH and I or anything, she is part of 'us'. I guess, even though I can't imagine it now, a new baby will also become part of 'us'. Doesn't stop me worrying about it though! lol.
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