If it wasn't all the encouragements I got from BB, I wouldn't have the guts to speak up to my ILs.

So, I have finally told them this morning that "I" have decided not to go back this year because of the reasons listed. I could tell at first they weren't too pleased because they were expecting me to say "the date of my arrival." At first, I felt a little scared because I didn't want to put DH in a tough position. He, on the other hand, actually stood on my side. I was pleased. I offered to pay for my ILs plane tickets to come see DD, but they are currently too occupied so I guess they'll come later or we'll fly back when she's older. At least this is somewhat settled.

THe problems between DH and I are definitely caused by fatigue and lack of communication. We have sat down and analyzed the sources of our arguments and came to one conclusion; no matter what the circumstance is, when one gets upset, the other should not start another fire... instead, s/he should walk away. Hopefully this will help to settle some problems. I lost track how many fights we've had since DD's birth. Some times I feel so discouraged and wonder if this will get worse day by day... DH and I hope for the best for DD so we have made a vow to each other that we will be more sensitive.

TBH, I am not very worried about her eyes. In fact, many infants learn to coordinate their eye movements in later weeks or months. I understand that it's a big task for DD learning everything at once.

My GP called me this week and asked me if I have booked an apointment with the paed yet. She seemed really concerned about DD. I tried to tell myself that it's probably a normal followup by the GP to all their patients. In the mean time, there's nothing I could do to change the apointment any sooner since the paeds are so overbooked.

I try not to worry myself out but easier said than done especially after the call from my GP. I wish these cloudy days would go away soon.

Sorry for the long vent... I must tire you all! Thank you for being such good listeners.