I think you need to properly debrief about both births and consider doing a calm birth course or hire a doula, independent midwife. I don't think this upcoming birth can be a matter of suck it and see it - yes, things might not happen but given what you have gone through emotionally and physically I'd say that it is more than likely something is going to present itself - whether that be needles, anxiety over fainting etc... I assume you are going back to the same hospital again to birth this baby? Is it possible to speak to the head of the maternity ward and debrief with her/him? I don't know what else to suggest, I hope you will be okay. :hugs: