Scooby love, that's a really traumatic situation and a really difficult choice.

What would I do? I'd opt for a CS over another induction, but maybe book it for 40-41w? Can you do that? I'd be really scared of tearing again with a "big" baby.

I know for me I'm not going anywhere near a hospital again: if I had to then I'd either lock the door and not let the midwives/obs in or I'd just go straight for a CS.

Best of luck with this very difficult decision.