Hey Kat. I am overwhelmed by this story. So much of it resonates with me, as I'm sure it does with every birthing woman, and so much of it has opened my eyes further to what a bodily experience birth is (sounds obvious, but its not). And some of it taught me about how tough it can be and how through circumstances out of my control I was privileged to have two very positive birth experiences.
I'm so pleased that you included that last page. I'm thrilled to know that you've come through this debriefing empowered, rejoicing in Ivy's birth. I am sorry for the struggle to get here, but mostly I'm sorry for the set of circumstances that took away your confidence.
Yours is such a powerful story, Kat. I can't believe how much you can remember 4 months on! I was struggling to remember the details of my births after only a few weeks. But your recounting of your feelings, urges, emotions... it brings it all back. Thank you for that. And thank you for sharing. xx