Thanks girls
I honestly dont think it matters how much you talk about the situation's and births, the feeling never really goes away. I just thought this would be a great place for those of us who have these feelings to let go with out judgement and talk to others (like us) who are walking in the same shoes.
I so apprecihate (god I so can not spell) all your positive thoughts. It if very heart warming and uplifting. Unfortunately due to having 3 c/s and having my tube reversal Im classed as a high risk pg and defently no VB for me. I had my ob's appointment 2 weeks ago and cried my eyes out to him when he told me. He was absolutely fantastic and gave me the biggest hug. So rare for a man to understand how we feel. Yet, what annoyes me about my body, when I have a m/c I have total m/s and never need a D&C ahhhhh it bogles my brain.
Mauw