I really wanted to start this thread cause I know deep in my heart, when I had my first c/s which was not my choice, I felt like an utter failure as a woman.
I had planned the whole natural birth, no drugs, positive thoughts etc but due to a twisted pelvis (which I only found out after baby number 3) and 23 hours of intense labour, I had to have an emergency c/s. I felt like I had cheated my son out of the natural birth he deserved, my husband out of watching his first born come into this world and myself for not being aloud to do what god had made my body to do naturally.
Dont get me wrong, I am so happy my child came out healthy and I dont love him any less...but those first few hours were not full of love..more resentment towards myself.
I was due to have a VBAC with my second and due to him trying to come into the world at 32 weeks, he tore my c/s scare internally and yet again had to have another c/s.
Vy Came early and no matter how much I begged was given another c/s. I woke and felt like I had gone to sleep and woken to a baby without any pain at all (a first)
So anyhow, here I am again with number 4 on the way and yes have been told I have to have another c/s. POstive - I know when my baby will be born (sort of if I dont have to have another emergency due to early labour) Negetive - the pain and the guilt that tears you up afterwards. IM very excited about having another baby and I know that this one will be my last which is very sad. Well there's only so many c/s a body can take.
So id like to share with others who feel the same about having a c/s and to those who think that people only have c/s to take the easy way out as they say.....I'd swap anyday