ok i need to get this out.

I had no choice in my c/s. Mason was a footling breech but because i was a public patient, it had to be a c/s. After a while, I grew to the idea.

Just days before he was born, I got some GREAT advice from fellow BB members about birth plans and preferences and I was really looking forward to implementing things.

Imagine my disappointment when none of these were possible

*I was unable to have the screen dropped
*I was unable to wait before clamping the cord
* I was unable to have DH cut the cord
* I was unable to hold my baby immediately after delivery
* there was no skin-to-skin contact
*I was told NO BABIES in recovery
* I was ALONE in recovery

Im sure there is more...but i cant remember at the moment.

My doc advised all the details about trial by scar to me the other day and Im scared about having to make the decision with baby no #2.

I am just so lucky that I wanted this baby more than anything in this world, because I am scared at how much worse I would have felt at his birth.

I dont know who to blame...the public health system? the hospital?