i don't know how to disappoint her, she is all excited to see him, every wednesday night. He turns up, she is bursting out the door, i don't know how to say "no, you're not going now" when she's so gee-ed up. I felt like cancelling it all around 4pm, when ex and i spoke on phone and he sounds exhausted, i tried to say, you're sounding very tired, how about you see her tomorrow instead, and he vehemently denied being tired and said it would all be fine.

At that stage, after hearing about the "changing the back living area around", i knew that would take up the whole day, so the chance of him having gone food shopping was virtually zilch. bilby came in, listening to my phone conversation, so i felt locked into the existing plans. She is angry enough at me already, because i am stopping her living with daddy.