huge hugs Gigi as others have said, suicidal thoughts seem rational when someone is depressed and it is very hard to find a way through that. I'm so glad you have an appointment with mental health services and hopefully they will find a way through to Bilby and help her see her true worth. Can you include her dad in this so that he can see the impact that his lack of planning has had on her? Not to make him feel bad but so that he can ensure he is supporting her recovery too.