Thank you so much everyone, your warm thoughts are very much appreciated and welcome.
It is tough, and I don't think other women who don't have any trouble TTC understand how much we are going through.
It is hard to keep your mind off everything....I absorb myself at work, do lots of gardening (think we've got the best garden in our suburb now), and one thing I have found is when it all gets really difficult, I do very difficult puzzles and try to work them out. Sounds nerdy, but it makes you focus I suppose. Oh, and I have a very, very sooky, affectionate dog. She helps.

I guess, when TTC consumes your life, and what you're doing is obviously not working (or your bits aren't working), you feel so inferior to everyone else. Can't seem to avoid feeling that you're on your own.....which is probably why I keep ghosting the BB forums. It seems to help.

Thanks again, and big hugs right back to you katabelleh, melis, danielle and dragonfly. I hope you get your miracles soon.