Hi all,
just checking in quickly, hope we are all travelling OK, I have been under a fair amount of stress today due to issues at work and am now sporting a killer headache, am thinking seriously about having tomorrow off, just about past my threshold for stress and worry, will see how I pull up in the morning I guess.
We haven't been told anything 'officially' about mum but my SIL rang up tonight and said she saw a piece of paper on the nurses desk that had fronto temporal dimensia written on it and after she googled it she told me about the symptoms and they match the changes in mum very closely, very scary, I started to google this and scared myself it is more than I can deal with at the moment with everything else going on and DH is still away until tomorrow afternoon.
I have decided to try and not think about it at present until we are officially told by somebody but it is hard keeping my mind off the possibilities this might mean for my mum (and selfishly for me and my babies in terms of genetic risk factors)
I guess there is no point worrying about things we can't control, we could all step in front of a bus tomorrow and should take the most of all of our opportunities while we can.
don't mean to be getting morbid but I really needed to talk a few thoughts through outloud.
Think I may take tomorrow off!!!!!! as if I don't have enough to worry about I have Paige's 2nd birthday party to organise as it was too late to cancel it so I have been trying to juggle full time work, DH away, mum in hospital, worry about dad and trying to tidy the living areas and cook some party food for Saturday.
I think I need some space!!!!

sorry if this got a little heavy guys we really are ok Angus, Paige and I are all healthy and DH will be home tomorrow so all will be fine.
well I am going to bed and I am not going to pack any lunches or work gear I just can't physically or emotionally do it, so I guess I have made my decision.
love to you all, and stay safe, Allie,Paige and Angus xxxxxx