I agree with you Bath when you say that you don't believe in inherent laziness. This is something I've been thinking about as well. Often when people appear lazy there is an underlying cause. Perhaps it's disengagement, depression, or a physical issue such as thyroid function. In my DS's case we used to wonder why he got tired so easily and now we know he has low muscle tone and this means that every movement he makes is more tiring than it is for others. No wonder he gets tired more easily - especially when walking a lot etc. What might be perceived as laziness is actually almost the reverse - having to put more effort in to do less.

In your situation, I can well understand your need for a change. Is there something you can do to make this happen without actually moving or going back to work? Take up a new hobby, study, find some volunteer work which would interest you? Redecorate? Start a new garden? Rearrange your furniture and change your daily routines around? Something that seems like a bit of a fresh start and will be motivating?

I hope something works out for you soon.