Thanks Manta Yep, going from the high degree of engagement I got from doing the Red Cross course earlier this year I think short courses are the go! LOL at moving furniture... DH hates it when i do that... he likes everything to pretty much stay the same... he grew up in the same house that his parents lived in their whole life... his whole family is VERY adverse to change. I am the opposite. Change motivates me. I've put in a vegie garden and am about to go check it out actually. Even though we rent the owners are very happy for us to live in this house as if it's our own... we are allowed to paint and wallpapaer... and I'm hoping to do that when it warms up so I can air the house out. Thanks for the suggestions

Rouge: yes, happiness is a factor. But I'm generally only happy if I can centre myself from time to time and becoming deeply engrossed in things helps me to centre. I can also feel ok about just dropping everyting and play with the kids... this makes me happy... but even after doing that the task of getting the things I need to do is just too daunting.

It's a bit like trying to ride a bike slooooowly... it's actually harder than riding at a good speed... if you are forced to ride too slow you just fall off.