Endo and painful sex

[cuddly84]

I was diagnosed a few yrs ago I also have a lapsocpy and some other procedure to remove endo. although they removed it I still get affected by it severly. Im bed ridden for around 2 weeks near my period i have cramps i feel like fainting and in tears nearly with the pain not to mention the blood i loose ( tampon plus pad changed around 4-5 times daily).

I have a high sex drive as i love sex but the pain is unbearable. I cannot have sex doggy style (sorry if tmi) as it hits my cervix and it feels like my insides r being torn apart and I cannot be on top cause it kills. the only positions i feel comfortable with is spooning and missionary even then im still in considerable pain.

While sex is enjoyable (the emotions and feelings take over ) but afterwards I suffer badly with bad stomach cramps that I nearly puke and it feels like my insides just wanna fall out. I have come close thousands of times to blacking out cause of the paina nd i have spent total of months and months in emergnancy with the er practically cant do much about it.

Im actually getting to a point of being so scared about what it is going to do to my body. last month i didnt get a period i got it 11 days late bringing my hopes up to the possibility of being pregnant only to get my period and downing my hopesof falling pregnant. I already have a 2 yr old which was concieved 9 months after my lapo.

I am finding it hard to become pregnant as I havent been on the pill since i was 8 weeks pregnant with my son as my dr said the pill would be stuffing my cycle up more so i chose not to use the pill. so in all up over 2 yrs i have no even come close to falling pregnant despite trying and trying.

any advice on techniques or anything i can take to get back to a healthy state of mind being uterus wise (like any vitamins to hieighten my chances). I guess ill just have to take a visit to my gyno again (havent been since lapo).

[Footsteps]

i have endo which where picked up on a ultrasound i also have severe adhesions on the bowel which iam on morphine for (iv tried everything else) iv seen 3 gynaes whov told me they cant do a lap because of the scarred tissue. im only 20 and i suffer with painful sex etc. iam on buscopan to help bowel spasms which are also commonly used for IBS. iv seen 12 surgeons and 3 pain docs and they cant help. iv tried lots of different pills none of which help i still bleed on them. i truly understand, im banging my head against a wall. somebody mentioned gabepentin just so people are aware there is a newer and supposedly better drug called progabalin, it helped the pain but made my depression worse.
hope this helps anybody
rach xxx