gumnut, i know how you feel hun about the rollercoaster. I never thought things could be so hard. I am sorry to hear about your stroke thats not right having one at 32 i always thought it was an older persons condition or an extremely unhealthy one. I hope you get well soon.

bel, yeah it is very complicated but we do love each other very much, it seems the only thing we fight about is when to have a baby. I want one asap, he wants one in 5+ years time when he has his masters degree. He has compromised with me but it doesn't feel right because deep inside i know he truly doesn't want it, does that make sense? And all this US health insurance stuff boggles my mind, why cant be free like the UK, and it would seem for maternity cover you would have to wait 2 years after taking the policy out to be covered it makes no sense.