MG, I completely understand. I don't think my body can do another baby. I just don't think I can do pregnancy again. My RA got so much worse after Sam was born (two years later it's still not under control) and if that happens again I can see me having two children and not being able to even get out of bed to care for myself, let alone them. On the other side of things, is it fair to your daughter to end up leaving yourself completely crippled and unable to do anything with her because you've given her a sibling. I may be out of line in saying that as I don't know the specifics of your condition, but it's a side of things many people don't think about. Few people understand what it is like to live with chronic pain.

I am still so completely and utterly happy to just have Sam. I just wish it were easier to close the door - but those two frozen embryos are still wedging it open. I almost wish they didn't exist!

BW