HotI wish i could explain more but please write down the way you are feeling now. I felt like this atleast 15times with Molly, even DH said twice that we were not setting foot into the place again and i still ****ed up and had molly in hospital and that was after a beautiful HB with DS two years before.... the system suxs but it has a horrible way of wearing you down..... promise yourself and stick to your guns! We are all here for you!!!!