No jadedness detected here either, Sushee. Or if it is there, I'm just as jaded as well.

For my family, the vast majority of them just really have no clue what this is like. They want to be supportive, but end up saying stupid things because they have no idea of what to actually say to me. I tend to feel like a bit of a freak at times - they're all incredibly healthy, incredibly fertile, never experienced miscarriage... and then there's me.

But, as I said before, even if I never find the courage to send this, I've thought through what I want. I know my decision to cut my family out of the loop (which is where we will stay if this never gets sent) is definitely not just a once-off reaction to something. There's many reasons for it happening, and if the conversation ever comes up, I know what sort of things to ask for.

BW