i'm kinda cruisin for now - had bt today and u.s tomorrow - am stressing out a little bit. can feel that something is happening with my ovaries, but no idea what - and my u.s is done just at a normal imaging place, not the ivf clinic, so i won't get results til the fs looks at the report later tomorrow night. i'm starting to feel more than a little anxious cos tomorrow feels like make or break day - and i don't KNOW what the outcome is going to be - for a control freak to be in the dark is the cruelest of cruel situations!

i've spent many an hour lately talking to BW about the if's, but's and maybe's of what is happening with boh of our cycles. i am feeling helpless in that i can't help her any more than what i am. and i'm feeling extremely guilty that, at this stage, my cycle seems to be on target when hers is going so erratically - and i'm starting to feel fear of what might happen for both of us - why can't this just be easy???

hopefully by this time tomorrow night i'll have some answers and know when i'll trigger and go to epu - god i hope so. we seriously need some semi-good news in here at the moment...