Thanks all - there are far too many of us struggling with these feelings if only this was an exact science where false hope was not a primary element of every visit to the FS! Ok - enough of being negative (where is the blinky thingy for that...)

Rara - good luck with this FET and hang in there - you have great strenght to keep going as you are and wishing you a .

BG - your journey is an inspiration to me and I really admire your strenght to keep going as you do - I'm stumbling just at this point, but you have gone through so much more. You have nothing to beat yourself up for!

Time for dinner - DH has just come in the door (i'm working from home so can play the domestic godess).

FG