For me, well Im not really sure yet. I know when things went so badly during our first attempt, we found we each had completely different responses. Mine was one of total disappointment and wanting to just try again, whereas DH responded with anger. His feelings were after all that and we still didnt even get a chance, really pi$$ed him off.

Now we are waiting for financial resources before trying again, but sometimes cant help but wonder whether DH would be more keen to try again sooner if things had gone differently. I dont mean that if we were successful (obviously), but moreso if he felt as though we had gotten a bit closer. As it was it doesnt really feel as though we got any further than we ever have (IYKWIM).

So, I guess we are still in the pangs of the relationship change possibillities. I know the financials of it are causing some issues, but I think that is because we havent yet had the experience of feeling as though we paid for something.


Keen