Hi everyone!!!
Firstly, Smudge hun, sooo sorry to hear of your BFN. Hope you are coping ok with it. BG, Hi cycle buddie!! Sorry you are feeling cruddy lately poor thing. Glad to hear though that you are getting "that feeling in the ovaries". Good things to come I reckon which I'm sure will be confirmed with the bloods this week. Carrie, Woo Hoo with the positive HPT!!! Not long now chickadee to get the confirmation! good luck. Sonya, how nervous does it make you when everyone is watching you do your first inj??? I'm sure you will have it all figured out in no time. Boo, My AF was late with synarel too (and Im normally a 28day girl) so dont worry too much. I was excited, sort of, knowing that the next phase was about to start. Hope she isnt too nasty to you. BW, I was thinking the same as the other girls re your AF. Got to be a good thing this time round I think. Hope you get your answers tomorrow so you can march on forward to FET. Holly you poor thing with the horrible time you've had lately!!! Sounds like youve been through the wringer.
Actually, it sounds like Easter was a bit of a bummer for everyone! We were supposed to get a heap of painting done but only one room (sort of )got finished and we still have
chaos everywhere cause we intend doing other rooms. We shall see. Me, I am very sure the puregon is working its magic as I am quite uncomfortable already and EPU isnt till monday at the earliest. I am sure I can feel the difference each day after the inj the night before does it's work. Last night I had a shocker of a night and I'm sure I only slept 3 1/2 hours! I have had the worst tension headaches as I am swinging constantly from being excited to terribly nervous and anxious and have mainly working evenings, getting home around 12.30pm then trying to wind down. I do have a bit of an anxiety problem and just cant seem to let things go. I just keep obsessing over things. Cant wait till the TWW!
Gosh, I'm sooo tired. I am normally a great typer but today I am making the worst mistakes cause my brain wont work. It should make things interesting at work tonight. I will have to go have a lie down beforehand, especially as DH had just got home so we might go have a little cuddle/snooze. No hanky panky with how tender my ovaries are feeling!
Hope to catch up with you all soon and Hi to everyone I might have missed?
Firstly - WOO HOO - huge congrats to you Carrie - that is the best news. i'm so happy for you hun!
Sazz - good to see that you're feeling the purgeon working (shame about the tender ovaries though - a suggle with benefits is always nice!). when do you have your BT to check about EPU on Monday?
Sonya - yay! you survived your first injection - and with the added stress of spectators!! it's all happening!
Holly - OMG - what a terrible weekend you've had - your poor DH!!! hope he's feeling ok now (stitches in your mouth just suck!!) - sorry you missed the eggie this month hun, but i'm so happy that everything has come up clear for you and DH.
boo - yay on no side effects from the synarel so far! it's so nice to get started on a cycle (even if it does taste so bad!). if the 6.30 wake up call on the weekend sounds harsh, do what i do - put the synarel beside your bed, snort when the alarm goes off, then go back to sleep!
BW - there's no way you sound crazy hun! you've been to hell and back to get those blasties in the freezer and to feel scared of taking the step to transfer them seems natural to me. you have four potential bubbas there, and they've fought so hard to get to where they are, and with the way your body has been misbehaving, it would be understandable to be worried that it's not going to work out - however - you're a strong person, you have faith in your FS, and i'm sure he's not going to transfer if he doesn't believe there is a real chance that the embie will stick. SO - my advice - talk to your FS tomorrow about your concerns that your LP is short and may be harmful to an embie. Ask all the questions you need to ask to set your mind at ease - and remember, you have proven you are a fighter and able to survive some really ordinary things - and you ARE strong enough to do this!!
As for me - well had my BT this morning, and waiting rather impatiently for the clinic to call me to see whether i've finally responded to the meds! have had a really rotten day so far - went to GP and found out my lymph glands are still enlarged, so off for an u/s on friday for that. had to have another BT and the second nurse was nothing short of a butcher! my arm still hurts. GP also decided to check the muscle pain i've been having cos of my strained back (has spread to shoulder/chest/arm) - due to family history of heart disease, ended up having to have an ECG - FOUR times! the first three didn't work!! everything came back normal (which i told the GP they would), but it just ruined my day. so, i've come home now, and been thinking about things. have come to the conclusion that the world is throwing all this bad stuff at me now so that we can have a baby soon, without any bad luck at all! well, that's my mind set at the moment, and i'm sticking to it!!
Horray BG on your attitude. I was just thinking the same thing while reading your post. I am sure you are getting all the bad stuff out of the way now so you can have a cruisy time of pg and birth. Fingers crossed for you. I hope the clinic call soon to put your mind at rest and that you will be doing IUI around the same time I have EPU. Thank goodness you can relax about the Heart stuff. Although you already knew it must be nice to have it officially ruled out, even if it took 4 tests to get it right. poor you!
I am having a scan and bloods done at sparrow's fart on friday (7.30am for those of you unfamiliar with sparrows fart time!hehe) which will mean getting up around 5am for the 2hour drive and then driving back again to start work at 10.20 am hopefully. My boss will be there to cover for me if I have trouble getting back on time but I'm sure it will be fine.
Hope everyone has had a good wednesday , hump day of the week. Does anyone else feel the week AFTER a long weekend actually feels longer? Im sure its because you are expecting it to feel much shorter and also cause you have 5 days work to do in 4!
i so totally agree - OMG - the week after a long weekend just drags SOOOO much! i guess the extra days at home just mess with the flow of your week, and make it so hard to deal with!!
good luck with the "sparrow fart" tests on Friday - you really must live in the middle of nowhere to have to travel 2 hours for your tests!! i know my u/s is a bit over an hour away from home, which is bad enough - would hate to have to go to Melbourne (just on 2 hours) for treatment! thankfully, the lab where they do all the testing is only about 30kms from home - still a bir of a drive, but not too bad - especially considering everything else we do is around the same distance!
well, just got the call from the clinic. they've pulled the pin - my body hasn't responded to the puregon again. maybe i just need to getback to themindset i had before i got together with DH - i was happy with the idea of not having kids. maybe i knew something back then and i've just been stupid enough to let myself hope this dream could come true...
but... before I met my DH I too never wanted children, and was quite happy that way, it all changed when we got together, though.
Just as I am confident that one day I will have children, I'm also confident that you will, too. It just means the journey is a little longer and a little more complicated, but you are not at the end of it yet!
I'm sending both you and Summer the biggest of hugs, and just wish I could be with you both to offer a shoulder, and tissues and chocolate.
Oh BG, just read your post. It made me so gutted for you. I wasn't going to post at all tonight, but i had to give you some :hugs: :hugs:. You obviously have passion and a lot of strength to get this far. I hope a bit of time will give you clarity on things and what to do next.
A quick post to BG - Just wanted to send you hugs xxx
This is just a horrible journey for some of us - Don't let it get you down... however long it takes both your body and the fs to get it right, they will xxx
Sending you the strength to stay positive sweetie xxx
BG - im so sorry about the bad news. i am sure you and your DH will make a decision in the future for whats best for both of you. here are all my hugs and deepest sympathy for you both right now.
BG- I am so very sorry sweety :hugs: what awful news. One thing I am sure of though is that you are a fantastic person and will be a great mother, so although it seems hopeless at the moment, please don't give up hope. Did the FS discuss what steps would be taken now? Would a different stim injection such as Gonal F rather than puregon make a difference? We are all here for you sweetie. Take care of yourself.
Sonya- Yay for having gotten the first injection done, I think the first is the worst because of the anticipation of it! I think you're pretty lucky not to have any fat to inject into - at the moment I feel like I have ample, want some of mine? Sazza- Goodluck for the scan and BT on Friday. Hope it all goes well. I understand how you are feeling with the headaches and sleep problems. The last few weeks I've slept shockingly, waking up a few times each night and straight away started stressing about things. It is so tiring! Hope you get through work okay! Boo- Just make sure your DH doesn't expect it to go in as easily as the others - make sure he pushes hard. As someone else said, it just seems bounce straight back off! Glad to hear you haven't had any effects from the syneral. Hope AF arrives for you soon! Holly- Gee, your poor hubby. I'm glad to hear that the tests came back okay though, that must have been a relief. And what a bummer that it fell right on the time of Oing!! Hopefully next month will be a good one. BW- Yep, I don't blame you for being nervous about a transfer. After what you've been through lately it must be somewhat of a relief not to have the stress of the tww atm, you probably need the mental health break! Smudge- Hope you are fairing ok. I'm thinking of you.
Thanks for all your congratulations, hopefully all goes well at the BT.
have spoken to DH about where we're at with this whole thing, and we've dicided it's ok to feel miserable for a day or two, then we have to refocus - SO, we have an FS appointment on the 26th, and until then we're going to try and "tone down" the house reno's for a while so that a bit of the money we have stashed can be used for IVF if needed. we'll get the new kitchen (cos we need it) but the laundry makeover can wait til we can save up some more $$'s - we're not gonna give up til the FS tells us we've exhausted every possible scenario and then some!
now i just have to tell my brother (aka our contractor) that he only has to do the kitchen for now and that we might want some of the money back
BG - You are so brave and soooo calm. I am sure i wouldnt hold together as well as you seem. i think that this immense courage shows that when you become a mummy(which i am sure WILL happen!) you will be FANTASTIC!!!!!
All my fingers and toes are crossed for whatever venture you try next.
By the way Carrie i am trying to find a way for me to absorb fat from people who dont want it!! I have offered plenty of friends upto $100 KG, but the strange thing is they prefer to LOSE the weight rather than sell it to me..(HA!-HA!) I am only asking for 10kgs.
I guess it shows that we are never happy, no matter what size shape or form.
i'm calm in writing - have had my meltdown at home, and am bound to get upset over the next couple of days, but i have to pick myself up and keep going. there's no point in me dwelling on the fact that i hate my body for the way it's behaved - isn't a particularly useful way to feel, and stewing on it isn't going to help me deal with all the other health issues i'm going through at the moment!
i think i've also had to deal with this somewhat calmly - a friend of ours lost her mum in an accident at the weekend - i think in the grander scheme of things this seems so small - we've hit another pot hole (ok, maybe a crater!) in the road to having a family, but it's not OVER - IYKWIM??
i'm not a particularly brave person - in fact, i'm something of a sook really - i've just had to accept the lot i have been handed and keep going. i don't have the emotional strength to deal with a complete emotional break ATM, so i can't afford to have one!!
Don't sell yourself short, BG! You're stronger and braver than you realise... you've just got to remember that what we are all dealing with is damned hard!
I don't know if anyone can answer my question... but is AF after a stim cycle supposed to be heavy and clotty and just ick? I want to get into my cyklokapron to make it ease up, but I don't think I should with all the other drugs I'm on... I'm really getting nervous about the appointment tomorrow - when I found a bit of paperwork that said the appointment should be 4 weeks after EPU, and I'm not even going 2... I'm worried he'll be cross that we're there, but that's when the receptionist booked me in! I was confused and drugged out of my scone, and that's when it ended up being... Got the paperwork from the clinic in the mail today - between the appointment with the FS, one of the lucrin kits and the freezing fees we're up for $510 - ouch! And then DH has an appointment with the urologist on Friday, another $170... this is expensive!
BW- Not sure about the period question. Don't worry about the FS, it's no skin off their nose and you have important questions to ask!
Hmm, I haven't got the freezing fee yet - we didn't have any last time so I don't even know what it is!
Carrie the freezer fee is included in your all up stim cycle fee with MIVF. BW is paying for bits and pieces because she didn't do the full stim I would guess. You will get a bill every 6-12 months from them for continued storage but that's it.
BG Hun you have so been through the wars lately...I liked the analogy of runing over a chinaman....I have been saying a similar thing but more that I am doing Karma for my early years....just wish I knew when my karma was going to be all paid up so I could move on...hmph.
Congrats on your early BFP Carrie...fingers are crossed here for a BT confirmation on Friday.
Goodluck for tomorrow SS....here's hoping you get the news you want to hear.
BW AF for me after stim was very heavy and clotty I think it is normal because they try to build up your lining so much so bubba sticks, try not to worry too much unless you start to soak a pad through every hour or so then ring the nurses straight away.
Holly OMG your poor hubby that must have been so scary not knowing and ouchies on the stitches.
You are right SAzz a few of us seem to be doing this the hard way recently, I just wish I could get myself out fo the life sucks rut I have got into. I can't even afford to go on a decent retail therapy spree!!
Goodluck for Friday Sazz Here's hoping those eggies are doing just what they are supposed to.
Lou I have had a look at Antonia's site and am definitely interested...Do you know if she is registered to claim on private health extras like natural thereapies?
BG - im so sorry about the bad news. i am sure you and your DH will make a decision in the future for whats best for both of you. here are all my hugs and deepest sympathy for you both right now.
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