Ladies you are all so wonderful, im crying just reading about how much surpport you have given me, yes you are right ive just got home from a staff meeting and boy oh boy did it drag we have a few chatter boxes at work, so a little reminder on my glass and a few coughs and i got them going again if only for a few moments


Well the news you are all waiting for ..........................BFN just as i knew, i must say i was really really, REALLY positive this time. How can you continue to believe in yourself when you suffer such blows? I mean how many times can you get back up and keep trying? this next cycle will be number 9 for me and my 4th full stim, not many of you will know my story but i was in a few situations that i dont ever want to be in again which is the reason that i am doing IVF and after suffering a ectopic at the age of 22 in morroco whilst backpacking (8weeks) i dint even know i was pg until i was in theatre removing my angle and suffered from lots of shock, they ended up cutting me right open , i still have bad memory of this proceedure, then to be told at 23 to have both tubes removed but try IVF first then to fall pg with IVF then to mc twice, a year later go to have tubes removed but cant as there is too much scaring so get them cliped. then at every stim cycle get an infection from recurrent PID that will never go away unless i have everything out, even my bloody bowl is stuck!!!where do you start to see the light.

Then people say take a year off TTC, then on the other hand people say well your embies were much better when you were 23, and now your turning 28, and all the drugs .................................................. ...........and more drugs .........ther is only so much your mind and body can take..........................Then there is the PCOS!!