Deni - welcome hun - i know how hard it is to stay positive hun. have my fingers crossed for you

BW - it's time for you to just say "it's all about me!" yes, they're your family, and yes, they make demands on your time, and yes (as much as you're angry with them) you still love them underneath it all - BUT - you are the only one that you need to focus on right now (well, you and DH). Christmas is about celebrating family and love - not being forced into a situation that you're not comfortable with. Take each and every day as it comes, don't commit to anything you're not ready to commit to - and if, when that date rolls around, you're not ready to be around your family, then simply don't do it! you and DH are the heart of your family now - having extended family is wonderful, but being around them at the expense of your own mental health just isn't worth it

thinking of you hun

BG