Hi girls!

I really really really need to vent...

Im so annoyed with my MIL right now I could scream! We have (until now) been very open about our fertility treatments to family and close friends and so far everyone had been supportive... I was in a txting conversation with MIL last night and thought I do the right thing and keep her in the loop with everything, I told her WE had decided to only do 1 IUI cycle and move straight on to IVF next month... She clearly doesnt agree and said that she thought we would give it more time and not to get my hopes up etc etc. I told her the IVF nurse agreed and she said 'nurses dont know everything!' ... Im soooo annoyed at her for not respecting the decision we have made and supporting it..

Yesterday she told my mum that Im going to fall apart if this IUI doesnt work cause my hopes were too high!! WTF!!!! Well lady... Im telling you now, not to worry about that cause I dont know what hope is anymore!!! All the hope I ever had dissapeared the day we lost our baby! I am VERY realistic about our chances!! + she also told my mum that im a Post-Natal Depression waiting to happen!!! I am so mad right now, i swear i can hear my blood bubbling!!!! And Im sooo hurt!!

Now my poor mum is so worried about me and feels bad cause she didnt realise!!! I feel Im just going thru the normal emotions of a loss and LTTC!!! This is something she knows nothing about!!! Yes, I can be sensitive but Id rather feel and be emotional than be a stone cold wench!

Whooooooooa! OK now i feel better to finally get that out... oh the sense of relief! Wish i could say that to her face!!!

For the ladies that are doing fertility treatments - have you been open with your family and friends about it all?? I think there is only a handful of ppl i will be discussing it with now! Too many opinions and they really have NO idea! Now i understand why my sister went thru all her IVF treaments so privately!!!

Im sorry to carry on but your the only ones that get it!!!!

I will be back later once Ive let all this go!! xx