LT TTC and Assisted Conception May-Jun 2012

[Keta]

Thank you so much girls. Im hoping you will all be following with bfp's very soon. Big hugs to you all.

[vic261]

Congratulations Keta. I am so very excited for you. Yippee another BFP!!!

[vic261]

15 May April 2012

Got Their BFP's

Amy_Jellybean 11.05.12
Keta 14.05.12

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!

Vic261 - CD5 Stim Cycle Scan 21.05.12
Nothing2lose -CD10 FET
Joeve - CD11
Bee27 - CD13
myturn - CD17
Mrs Mac - CD23
lyra stardust - CD29

Waiting for Transfer

Hanging out in the TWW (stalk them here:https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...-180508-9.html

Mrs P - CD? 13 dpt 1 x day 5 embryo BT 15.05.12
Planetsasha - CD26 6 dpt 1 x day ? embryo BT 21.05.12

[Mrs Mac]

welcome back Jane and Blossom Hope your return is short and sweet.....

Each cycle, more and more people leave us, and while (of course!) I am more than excited for everyone.... I am starting to feel a bit left behind.... I want to ask those long termers how do you do it.... but I know the answer is that you just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and keep going.... because you have to know that you have tried everything....

You made me cry because that is exactly how I feel. I am so happy for everyone here that gets there BFP because I know how hard each and every one of you have had to fight for it but every time I see a pregnant woman walk down the street or even walking past baby clothes in a shop I just want to cry. The only thing that stops me from giving up is that I don't want to look back and think "if only i had tried...." and although there are days that I completely breakdown and hate myself for this situation, as long as I am still able I still have a chance and that is the little piece of hope I need to keep me going

[Joeve]

Mrs Mac now I am going to cry!!

[Jane :)]

My turn and Mrs Mac - Completely understand how you are feeling. I feel the same and then feel guilty for being so selfish (worrying about my circumstances rather than being able to celebrate the joy of others). I read this quote recently "Life is not how it's supposed to be. It's how you cope with it that makes the difference". Feel like it is a bit of a quote for my life at the moment. I have to say that this journey (and sometimes life in general) can just seem so damn lonely. If it wasn't for girls like you to chat to on here and feel so well support by, I have no doubt I would have gone completely crazy by now. So thanks girls. Got hope and believe our time too will come. FX

[Miss.B]

Myturn, hugs lovely

In fact, big hugs all round

I just wanted to say that while it is really lovely for many of our beautiful friends to graduate to the belly buddies groups, it WILL be your turn ladies one day, so don't give up on your dream and I hope it will be your turn soon to graduate also.

[myturn]

TBH..... I think I knew that we all kinda feel that way - but are all too scared to say it, cause we don't want to put a damper on how everyone's excitement (and I am known IRL, for saying what I think.... so.....)


doesn't stop us being deliriously happy for every .... and as N2L has said before, in each of us there's a small part that does recognise that maybe... maybe some of us won't get the illusive BFP..... for me it was hammered home when Gecko got to the 'end' of her TTC journey..... but.... there is always hope.

and that is something worth holding onto - for just a bit longer - for ALL of us..... it's all we've got, right...?


anyway - sorry to be the 'tear jerker' of the week.... I'm actually feeling okay about things ATM, and even told the girls I had dinner with tonight, that I'd been trying for 2 1/2 years, after all, it's not like everyone I know doesn't KNOW I want children.... I'm kinda sick of the secrecy.... I don't want to tell people when every cycle is a failure.... but I think I'd like more people to know, that - we are having trouble - and to be nice to me, and look after me.... cause I need that.

thanks for always being here to listen girls - I value that so much xxx

[Mrs P]

Hi girls
Well it's a BFN for me. I knew already from poas twice ha ha so wasn't suprised. Had to be BT day when I had a shocking day at work, ended up needing a small time out in the bathroom but managed to hold it together. I find that I'm not able to cope with stress at work so well when I have personal stress as well.
Anyway, straight back into a FET. Am continuing progynova and stopping the progesterone pessaries, nurse said I should get AF in about a week. Then once I call they will book in a scan, no Day 1 BT this time which is one less jab so yay! My lining developed so well last time so if it does so again I could be looking a transfer in less than 4 weeks.
Sorry for lack of personals, am on iPhone and find it too hard to keep up but will catch up soon

[myturn]

sorry Miss P - glad you have a plan of action to get started with. look after yourself xxx

[Joeve]

Sorry mrs p hope the FET is the one for you
It's a bit boring waiting to start stim again after all the commotion last month seems weird to just to bd and nothing else! Same outcome though lol

[vic261]

16 May April 2012

Got Their BFP's

Amy_Jellybean 11.05.12
Keta 14.05.12

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!

Vic261 - CD6 Stim Cycle Scan 21.05.12
Nothing2lose -CD11 FET
Joeve - CD12
Bee27 - CD14
myturn - CD18
Mrs Mac - CD24
lyra stardust - CD30

Waiting for Transfer

Hanging out in the TWW (stalk them here:https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...-180508-9.html

Planetsasha - CD26 6 dpt 1 x day ? embryo BT 21.05.12

[vic261]

So sorry to hear about your BFN Mrs P I am not too sure if it gets easier or harder to hear it.

I know exactly how you ladies feel when another gorgeous girl gets her BFP. I too feel left behind. Especially when everyone is having BT around the same time and I am the only one with another BFN. Having been on here since October a lot of beautiful ladies have come and gone and yet here I still am. Time is definately not on my side.

I have only been doing AC since last October and its not as long as some girls, but I have only had one month off in that whole time. Its been very consuming. Even though we are doing other things and getting on with our lives its still there. I guess its not so bad this time of year. Christmas and Easter are over. Its cold and wintery so not too many family bbq's to go to with all the kids running around.

myturn - I am so glad that you have spoken to someone and it made you feel a bit better.

Will be back later, boss walking in

[nothing2lose]

Yeah, Im in the same boat Been in this thread for almost a year and a half. Before that it was six months in the clomid thread Nothing but BFNs. Someone who got pg on the clomid thread is now pg with number two.

I'm always happy when someone gets UTD, even though I am slowly resigned to the fact it won't ever happen for me. Babies are blessings regardless. Who am I to be upset that another is coming into the world. The only time it really stung was when, a couple of months ago, I found out my ex is pregnant with his seventh child. That kind of sucked

[Saffy]

Vic- I know exactly how you feel, ( sorry that its coming from someone with a bfp, i don't mean to be insensitive just that i have been there) but about a year ago, seriously, whenever i was in the TWW thread, everyone else except me would get bfps, and I mean EVERYONE. I seriously started thinking that I was cursed for myself but good luck for everyone else, so I do know where you are coming from, it was almost laugheable. What I am trying ot say is that your turn will come lovely, and it doesn't mean you aren't happy for other people, just that you want to join them. Hoping this cycle is the one for you.

Same to you N2L- also poo to your ex

[vic261]

Thanks Saff. Its lovelies like you who finally get their BFP's that keep all of our dreams alive. Thank god for some LTTTCers getting theirs as I would have been inclined to give up, but know it can happen.

Was briefly updating my mum on the joys of IVF as we dont tell anyone what we are currently up to, only letting them know a cycle hasn't worked if they ask. By then its more matter of fact and I can brush it off. She tells me to just relax. If I am too stressed it wont happen. OH! Is that what I am doing wrong! IF ONLY IT WAS JUST THAT!!! She doesn't understand any of it. She and my sister get pregnant at the drop of the hat and she 5 months along with my younger sister before she realised she was pregnant. Went to the docs because she was putting on weight and no matter how many situps she did she couldn't shift it and thought she had a tumour. That was over 30 years ago mind you. Crazy woman!!

[Joeve]

Vic really??? Just relax??? Wow! Lol too funny!

[Jane :)]

I hate all the advice giving. Just relax. Exercise but don't exercise too much. Eat well but don't diet. It particularly stings when it comes from a highly fertile person. In y opinion if you haven't suffered infertility then you have no idea about what this is REALLy like, so just shut up and be supportive. People forget that sometimes the best and most supportive thing they can do is to say nothing at all, but give us some pleasant distraction.

So appreciate knowing that others feel similar to me. Makes me feel "normal".