Thanks Crafty, I just can't face it yet but I know what you are saying. In the past I've found it hard to face the pregnancies but usually OK once the bub comes so it's good they don't live close. Actually with the people in my life who are actually sensitive and aware of our situation, the pregnancies aren't hard either. My brother is not one of those people. Just a bit sick of the circus of family events that revolve around him and his kids. I love them all dearly but would be nice to share the light with my other brother and I some times. I know he'd be thrilled for us if it happened and I don't want them to be grieving and sad but honestly my SIL says she doesn't really want another one so if she gets another one I will feel like punching something out of pure frustration! You know...like a tree or something :/

Oh and thanks for your encouragement re the diet. I'm being 99.999% good with it but tonight there is a chocolate frog in the drawer that is calling my name and I'm not sure I can resist much longer! Agghhhh !!!

Good luck with your appointment! I had my heart in my mouth when I logged on just now and saw your name in the post - honestly Crafty, this BFP that is in my mind for you just won't go away and I can't explain it - so hope I am right!!

And for all of us waiting in here, I am hoping so damn hard we get the break we all so desperately want very very soon. We deserve it after all this hardship!!

Sunbeam, when are you testing? How are you going with the TWW?

Ferrals, have you found a place yet? How'd the court case go (or is it coming up?). Hoping you'll get a surprise this month

Mildez, that's awful that you also know someone who has suicided. The pain of it never goes away, poor poor kids.

Porsche, Sevie, MatthewsMum - you're in my thoughts. Hope all is well with you.

Love and hugs to everyone and sorry for anyone I have missed (including the lurkers!!)