I don't know what to tell you but I want you to know that I'm here to cheer you up in any way that I can. How are you feeling today? Are you much improved? What is going on inside your head? Have you forgiven yourself and are you looking forward to the end of the week? Not long to go now. Does it make you feel better that Marcellus has had the same symptoms as you (and loads of other women too) and had a +ve BT? Will it make you feel better / more at ease if you read some +ve stories from the net?
My symptoms have gone away almost completely. And that started doing my head in on Friday evening. But then I realised that I'm not the one in control of this and as you say, que sera, sera.
Not that any of what I've just said will offer you the slightest bit of optimism. I am hoping that you might at least be able to quell those feelings that are bringing you undone. Sweet thing, it (your down and out feelings) may well be for nothing. You might very well be wasting your energy. I understand why you're thinking more on the -ve side as I do the same thing as a method of self preservation. I just wish I could help you to be cheery. Oh, and don't think that I'm not beyond organising for you to be forcefully restrained if need be!
If any of you other ladies out there have words of wisdom or support for the three of us in here, we'd sure love to hear them!
FGS, how you doin'? I hope that in our drug induced nuttiness, we haven't scared you off....
I feel so lost..!! I don't know what to do.. or think?!?! I am so scared to get excited - but I am excited... and nervous, and scared, and happy, and hopeful... nothing is going to be able to describe the emotions of a 2ww... seriously... I am day 1 - and this is my first ever 2ww with AC... and I'm already thinking I might need to fasten my seatbelt!!!
My super sore BBs have downscaled to a minor ache.. and I am not getting any more pelvic pain or cramps... so of course, I am pooping my pants that crinone is not working for me... afterall - you lovely ladies had cramp city! ugggggh
Moonflower has anyone ever told you, you are just a sweetheart!?!?
Well you are X
I'm glad your symptoms have eased for you, I truly think it's better when we are not constantly feeling things, blessed reminder of what we are trying to forget about!
How are you feeling??? When is your BT??
You truly deserve for this to work, and I will be so excited for you if it has!!
Truly, for anyone not to have to go through this again, would be the greatest think in the world.
FGS, hold on for the ride honey, I'm sure you will be more of a sport than I have!!!
Take it easy, rest up, and chill for a couple days. And be sure to stay happy and excited, because once I started to think negative thaughts, it was hard to get them out of my head, and beleive me, just take every day for it's own individual journey.
Well today is DH and my 1st Wedding anniversary, and I just feel so blessed to have a sweet man that is supporting me through all of this like a hero, and giving me plenty of encouragement to try this again. Honestly we are both at peace now if this cycle has not worked, no more tears and tantrums.
I know it's not over until BT day, but deep down we just know these things.
Anyways, hurry up Friday for me, so I can stop having to use those darn crinone pessaries, they are starting to make me a mess........tmi....
Good morning ladies! (Well, it was morning when I started this post!)
FGS, you are too cute. I have a plan for you to stop feeling so lost. Go back to where I first jumped into the tww, followed closely by MC. We were feeling all those feelings too! We can serve as a warning to you! I especially did not want to get excited. But at the same time, I did because this was all new to me. I actually had fertilised eggs which is more than I’ve ever had! Plus I felt that after all I’d been through, I deserved to get a bit excited. Still, I couldn’t do it. My fear took care of that. By the end of my first day, I didn’t think I would make it even to the end of the first week. But look! I’m still here. And I’m actually in better shape than I was at the beginning. I’ve got family praying for me and I’m praying for you, MC and your embies.
I had the sorest BBs too. And the cramping. But latter stopped a few days ago (like you, I worried about why it is so) and two nights ago, I was able to take my bra off without any pain. Even DH remarked last night that I didn’t make pained noises getting into bed! I’m not beyond wondering if the cessation of all my symptoms is a bad thing. It’s just that I know I can’t (and let’s face don’t really want to) make them come back. It just is. And that’s the worst of it sweetpea. What you can do is call on me (and I’m sure MC and anybody else) and rant and rave and cry and moan and be joyful and happy and everything that you’re feeling. Because we know and we can do this:
My only advice (if I may) is to listen to MC. Try your very best (and it’s damn hard) not to get down. Those rotten pessaries make you feel even worse. It really is hard to pull yourself out. But we’ll be here to help you. You’re already a couple of days down. Only 11 more big sleeps! Leave the pant pooping to your newborn baby when he/she arrives!
MC, CONGRATULATIONS to you and your DH! How does it feel to be married a whole year? I hope you both have a wonderful, relaxing, laughter and love filled day! I am sure it will be now that you have both unshackled all your tension. What wondrous release!
You say the sweetest things, btw, MC. I think we, all of us, deserve for our cycles to work. We’re keen to be good mummies as well as wives and we’ve gone through so much, haven’t we? For me, even having to actually admit that I had to have scientific help was a huge emotional hurdle and then to actually do it…. Well, I’m sure you are no different.
It is funny that you say that you “just know”. I’ve said to people, that I “just know” that I can’t have kids. They look at me like “Whatever you nutbag. You can’t ‘just know’.” But we feel it, don’t we? Down in the core of our being. But let me tell you this: It ain’t over till the fat lady sings. And MC, I haven’t even begun clearing my throat yet!! (You can’t see me, but I’m overweight.) So I know that you just know lady. But I also want, so very much, for you to prove yourself wrong.
FGS, are you writing all this down? Don’t make me come back to you in a week and copy and paste this reply!!
AFM, I have two more big sleeps till the dreaded BT. I am nervous, the teensiest bit excited and a little scared too. I woke up at 04:30 this morning, I’m sure because I’m thinking about this test. Ugh! As I said to my sil yesterday, this is the one test I don’t want to fail!
Hope you ladies are having a good day today.
MF x
Last edited by Moonflower; January 25th, 2010 at 10:26 AM.
Just thought I'd pop my head in to let y'all know I amm still alive here...
MC - it's my wedding anniversary today Hehe - that's so cool. I read your posts in the AC forum. You sound sooo down/negative - and I am really sorry that you feel like this! Can you be THAT sure that it's going to be a BFN? did you POAS again!?!?! I really hope and pray that you BT shocks the socks of you and you end up with your BFP... I reaaaally do xxx
MF - SO EXCITING - tomorrow is your BT right??? I have everything X'd for you!
AFM - still no weird 'signs' or 'feelings' - my bbs still ache but nothing like before - and I really have no cramping at all... if anything, sometimes I might feel a niggle.. and dare I say.. sometimes I almost forget what's going on.... but that being said... I wish I could go to sleep and wake up on BT day - so I don't have to overanalyse everything all the time..
Hi FGS - CONGRATULATIONS to you and your DH! Hope you are both having a lovely day being as romantic as you can at this time!
Have you been reading up on any other ladies stories who are in the same situation as us? Sometimes it can help, although sometimes it can make you a bit nutty. Like if you only read stories about women who have weird symptoms instead of reading about the ladies who have no symptoms at all!! Remember, there are no right or wrong symptoms!
MC, have I upset you? I don't understand what is happening. I know you said you feel that this cycle hasn't worked and yet, you haven't actually gotten AF yet, right? I'm so sad for you. I really wish I could hug you right now. I don't want to upset you but I really, really don't want you to give up. My nurse told me that even if I get my AF, I have to come for the BT because she had a girl who got her AF, didn't go for her BT, did another cycle and she was pregnant the whole time. Oh please MC, try to lift. Don't let that freakin' crinone make you so sad. I hate that I can't help you.
Yes FGS, I have my BT tomorrow. It will be early (before work) and I'm going to ask them to not ring me as, if it is a -ve, I won't be able to cope and I don't want anyone at work to find out (I work with 4 blokes!!). I'm going to ask if I can ring them when I get off work.
I don't know what to feel. Part of me doesn't even want to have the BT. Or at least that I should put it off for another week. I kind of like the idea that I'm PUPO and I don't want to deal with bad news. How silly, huh? I'm still a bit nervous, a bit scared and a very little bit excited.
MC, please write and let me know how you are and what is going on. I'm really concerned and I just don't know what to do or say to help you....
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So ashamed of myself!!!X
Oh, and don't think that I'm not beyond organising for you to be forcefully restrained if need be!
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