Good morning ladies! (Well, it was morning when I started this post!)
FGS, you are too cute. I have a plan for you to stop feeling so lost. Go back to where I first jumped into the tww, followed closely by MC. We were feeling all those feelings too! We can serve as a warning to you! I especially did not want to get excited. But at the same time, I did because this was all new to me. I actually had fertilised eggs which is more than I’ve ever had! Plus I felt that after all I’d been through, I deserved to get a bit excited. Still, I couldn’t do it. My fear took care of that. By the end of my first day, I didn’t think I would make it even to the end of the first week. But look! I’m still here. And I’m actually in better shape than I was at the beginning. I’ve got family praying for me and I’m praying for you, MC and your embies.
I had the sorest BBs too. And the cramping. But latter stopped a few days ago (like you, I worried about why it is so) and two nights ago, I was able to take my bra off without any pain. Even DH remarked last night that I didn’t make pained noises getting into bed! I’m not beyond wondering if the cessation of all my symptoms is a bad thing. It’s just that I know I can’t (and let’s face don’t really want to) make them come back. It just is. And that’s the worst of it sweetpea. What you can do is call on me (and I’m sure MC and anybody else) and rant and rave and cry and moan and be joyful and happy and everything that you’re feeling. Because we know and we can do this:
My only advice (if I may) is to listen to MC. Try your very best (and it’s damn hard) not to get down. Those rotten pessaries make you feel even worse. It really is hard to pull yourself out. But we’ll be here to help you. You’re already a couple of days down. Only 11 more big sleeps! Leave the pant pooping to your newborn baby when he/she arrives!
MC, CONGRATULATIONS to you and your DH! How does it feel to be married a whole year? I hope you both have a wonderful, relaxing, laughter and love filled day! I am sure it will be now that you have both unshackled all your tension. What wondrous release!
You say the sweetest things, btw, MC. I think we, all of us, deserve for our cycles to work. We’re keen to be good mummies as well as wives and we’ve gone through so much, haven’t we? For me, even having to actually admit that I had to have scientific help was a huge emotional hurdle and then to actually do it…. Well, I’m sure you are no different.
It is funny that you say that you “just know”. I’ve said to people, that I “just know” that I can’t have kids. They look at me like “Whatever you nutbag. You can’t ‘just know’.” But we feel it, don’t we? Down in the core of our being. But let me tell you this: It ain’t over till the fat lady sings. And MC, I haven’t even begun clearing my throat yet!! (You can’t see me, but I’m overweight.) So I know that you just know lady. But I also want, so very much, for you to prove yourself wrong.
FGS, are you writing all this down? Don’t make me come back to you in a week and copy and paste this reply!!
AFM, I have two more big sleeps till the dreaded BT. I am nervous, the teensiest bit excited and a little scared too. I woke up at 04:30 this morning, I’m sure because I’m thinking about this test. Ugh! As I said to my sil yesterday, this is the one test I don’t want to fail!
Hope you ladies are having a good day today.
MF x
Last edited by Moonflower; January 25th, 2010 at 10:26 AM.
Just thought I'd pop my head in to let y'all know I amm still alive here...
MC - it's my wedding anniversary today Hehe - that's so cool. I read your posts in the AC forum. You sound sooo down/negative - and I am really sorry that you feel like this! Can you be THAT sure that it's going to be a BFN? did you POAS again!?!?! I really hope and pray that you BT shocks the socks of you and you end up with your BFP... I reaaaally do xxx
MF - SO EXCITING - tomorrow is your BT right??? I have everything X'd for you!
AFM - still no weird 'signs' or 'feelings' - my bbs still ache but nothing like before - and I really have no cramping at all... if anything, sometimes I might feel a niggle.. and dare I say.. sometimes I almost forget what's going on.... but that being said... I wish I could go to sleep and wake up on BT day - so I don't have to overanalyse everything all the time..
Hi FGS - CONGRATULATIONS to you and your DH! Hope you are both having a lovely day being as romantic as you can at this time!
Have you been reading up on any other ladies stories who are in the same situation as us? Sometimes it can help, although sometimes it can make you a bit nutty. Like if you only read stories about women who have weird symptoms instead of reading about the ladies who have no symptoms at all!! Remember, there are no right or wrong symptoms!
MC, have I upset you? I don't understand what is happening. I know you said you feel that this cycle hasn't worked and yet, you haven't actually gotten AF yet, right? I'm so sad for you. I really wish I could hug you right now. I don't want to upset you but I really, really don't want you to give up. My nurse told me that even if I get my AF, I have to come for the BT because she had a girl who got her AF, didn't go for her BT, did another cycle and she was pregnant the whole time. Oh please MC, try to lift. Don't let that freakin' crinone make you so sad. I hate that I can't help you.
Yes FGS, I have my BT tomorrow. It will be early (before work) and I'm going to ask them to not ring me as, if it is a -ve, I won't be able to cope and I don't want anyone at work to find out (I work with 4 blokes!!). I'm going to ask if I can ring them when I get off work.
I don't know what to feel. Part of me doesn't even want to have the BT. Or at least that I should put it off for another week. I kind of like the idea that I'm PUPO and I don't want to deal with bad news. How silly, huh? I'm still a bit nervous, a bit scared and a very little bit excited.
MC, please write and let me know how you are and what is going on. I'm really concerned and I just don't know what to do or say to help you....
I had the greatest day with DH on our anniversary, we had plenty of chats and huggs, was so nice.
Congrats on your anniversary too FGS!!!
Moonflower I can;t bebeive it is BT time for you tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG!!! As slow as it has gone.....that went fast!!
I am praying that you get your BFP tomorrow MF, it wil totally make my day!
My bt is on Friday. The reson I used a HPT the other day, is that my FS told me that if my little blasty stuck, it would show by day 7/8. So that is why I got down. But Moonflower i promise promise promise I'm ok XXX Ofcourse I got let down, but gorgeouse DH was therre to pick me up so I could dust myself off!!!!
Girls, good luck, I hope we all get a great result out of all of this, MF I have a good feeling about tomorrow!!XX
Okay, so very glad to hear that you are doing good and I'm really pleased that you and DH are do so well. And that you had a great anniversary. Excellent news!
Last night I was telling my DH about how I was feeling nervous etc etc and mid sentence, possibly even mid word he shoved his tee shirt (he was helping fold clothes) in my face and said "What's this stain?" I was aghast and clearly the look on my face showed it because then he put the shirt down and said "don't worry about it". But of course, it was much too late. Damage done and I didn't talk to him about it anymore. In fact, it took me an hour to say anything to him at all. Because that's how long it took him to apologise. *sigh*
Thanks for your positive thoughts and wishes for me. I really want this to work for us all too.
Thanks so much Loula! I really appreciate your thoughts and wishes. Especially at this moment because.....
After nothing since Friday, I've been having cramps again today, getting worse each hour. I thought nothing about it. Nor did I think much about the fact that my nipples are hurting like hell. About an hour ago, I had to do my pessarie thing. When I removed the stick, I noticed blood on it. Now I'm beside myself. I've cried a whole lot and DH was next to me not knowing what to do because he too, is upset. I've chastised myself for being +ve and having happy thoughts. If only I hadn't let myself get too caught up in PUPO.
Oh, I know it ain't over yet ladies. But it sure does feel like it is. I know other women have had bleeding / spotting before their BT and they got a +ve result but I don't recall any of them saying the cramping returned too.
I'm so sorry to be so down. Especially to you MC. But I've been thinking about you loads today and I'm wondering if you're getting bad cramps because you always have had bad menstrual cramps? I don't know. It was just a thought.
FGS, been thinking of you too. Hoping you're having a wonderful day with DH. If you're both up to it, tell me something happy about yourselves.
I know that I may very well have had a brain snap for nothing. Part of me is still hoping....
I’m not beyond wondering if the cessation of all my symptoms is a bad thing. It’s just that I know I can’t (and let’s face don’t really want to) make them come back. It just is. And that’s the worst of it sweetpea. What you can do is call on me (and I’m sure MC and anybody else) and rant and rave and cry and moan and be joyful and happy and everything that you’re feeling. Because we know and we can do this:
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