Moonflower my Darling, words cannot express how dissapointed and sad I feel reading your post. I am so sorry this cycle did not work out the way you wanted honey, please take as much time as you need to to greive the feelings you have built up inside right now, and I can only pray that you find strength within yourselves to have another go.
Honey you have been such an inspiration to me at picking me up when I've been down, as I had said to you earlier, i am so proud of how far you have become, from when I first met you.
Please keep in touch Moonflower, I wish you all the very best in your future journeys, and would love to share them with you, good nd bad XXX
Givfe that gorgeouse DH a big hug from all of us, and just love eachother right now babe, I am so sorry XXXXX Catherine XXXXX
FGS, I know exactly how you are feeling honey, I too had 5 nice eggies growing, to get a letter in the mail to say only 1 was good enough to freeze, so sorry, but I just pray, that you won't have to worry about that for a loooong time XXXXX Cuz the 1 inside your tummy is going to grow and grow XXXXX
Moonflower- I shouldn't be in here yet (not till tomorrow hopefully) but I have been following your month and just wanted to say I am incredibly sorry this wasn't the month for you. I know there isn't anything I can say to make you feel better, but just wanted you to know I am so very sad for you and thinking of you and your DH.
I hope to see you back in here soon for a better month
Hey Moonflower - hope you're doing ok - thoughts are still with you and your DH...
Murraycod - hope you're not too anxious about tomorrow...
BJ - Hope you're relaxing and that your little embie is settling in just nicely.
AFM... ****WHHHHHHHHYYYYYYY***
Ok.. I am seriously losing the plot... when I first started this 2ww and I was reading posts from you guys MF and MC... I just didn't get why it was so bad.
I GET IT NOW... I really do... and I am over it.. going CRAZY... I just want to POAS so I KNOW it's over with - instead of wondering... why the hell does it have to be a 2ww anyway???? Thats a LONG time to have your whole rest-of-your-life on hold! I don't know how anyone can say that you just need to get on with you life as normal in the 2ww... LIES LIES LIES!!!
I was actually feeling positive and ok about the whole thing until that STUPID letter from my FS yesterday... and it happened at the WORST time... too early to POAS and today is my RDO - so I am googling all sorts of things to help me find my answer... sitting here like a crazy psycho woman stressing...
I called Repromed this morning and one of the embryologists called me back to explain what had happened. I had my little bean tferred at 4 days... she said all 6 were looking really good at 4 days and were doing exactly what they were supposed to...
She then said next time they had checked - which would have been either the next day (sunday) or Monday when they wrote the letter... 4 of them had stayed at day 4 stage and didn't develop any further - and the last one reached blastocyst stage - but was too poor quality to freeze...
I then asked her about the one they transferred... did this one just 'stop' too..? and she said "It's a real possibility - but you need to stay positive that we chose the best looking one to implant"
Not much consolation I tell you.
I am over this... sooooooo done... I don't know if I could even do this again
- I am 100% convinced that this is not going to happen for me - and it hurts like hell... whoever came up with PUPO anyway? aaaarrrggghhh....
I am so sorry for the negative post - hopefully MC, your BFP will turn everyones luck right around!
Hey FGS, sorry you aren't feeling great, but your embie is in the most conjusive place to growing and since he was also the best looking one, surely he has every chance in the wold
MC- I hope you are hanging in there, we all have everything crossed for tomorrow.
BJ- congrats on being pupo!!
I also had a 4 cell, day 2, grade 2 embryo transferred today. My doctor didn't use ultrasound for the transfer either, but I got to see my embie on the screen before hand. I am already feeling loopy and actually had passing thoughts of peeing on a stick before
FGS - Aw honey, I know it's hard but YOU CAN DO IT. I can't believe the embryologist said that to you! What good did that do anyone?? Please just try and be positive (and DON'T POAS!!) because we actually have no control over what is going to happen.....which I think is the worst part of this journey. But so many have gotten positive results with not such great looking embryo's and then there are perfect ones that don't stick. To learn to fly you have to risk falling. I know you think that you wouldn't be able to go through this again, I thought the same thing and here I am on my 3rd. Sometimes I wonder if I am just a glutton for punishment and am just slowly going to go mad but something inside me just won't let me give up....I know that I am supposed to be a mum. You are too, otherwise you wouldn't be here so it will happen! Stay strong and positive for your little emby ok. Sorry for rambling
Sharee - Welcome to the mad house! I'm glad that everything wen't well for you today. When is your BT? Mine is the 10th. Which may as well be a lifetime! lol Hope you are having a nice rest up this arvo and are being looked after by your DH.
MC - Hope you are hanging in there. Good luck for tomorrow xxx
MF - Still thinking of you. Hope you guys are hanging on.
Sharee, to the mad house. I hope that you enjoy your stay here. I know from personal experience the ladies are all wonderful and will really help you get through this.
Dearest MC, how could I let today go past without wishing you every good thing. I'm looking forward to some good news from you soon.
FGS, I can't tell you how grieved I am to hear that you were given that bad news about your embies. And more so that you're emotional state has taken a battering. It's not supposed to be like this.
To all of you who have sent me some comforting words and understanding, thank you so much. From the bottom of my heart. I would never have survived the past two weeks without you all. I'm still hurting but I know that time is what I need.
I'll be popping back in to check and see who is going to give me good news! I can't think of any women more deserving of pregnancy that all of you. Strong, kind, thoughtful and with just a tiny bit of crazy (that comes after the first week of being in here!!).
God bless you all. And thank you so very, very much.
On a funny note, just realised the name of my last post is manhunt commission
I'd like to pretend that has some deep meaning, but I'm pretty sure I typed the verification words in the wrong spot
Sharee you just nearly made me wet myself.....that was the best laugh I've had in ages, exactly what I needed! I noticed that before and just thought......um ok, maybe I missed something. Hahahaha. Nice work xxx
Sharee, thank the lord I am wearing a panty liner, cuz I did literaly laugh that hard I dribbled!!! (not from my mouth...........) Anyway......
Fgs, as much as the embryologist was straight to the fact, no corners on the edge, you know that they are giving you the best possible chance, not a medium one, not a half hearted one, a propper chance at getting this right. It would be awfull, to go through all this, to find out in the end that you weren't given the best possible chance to fall PG.
That litle blasty that is inside your tummy right now, is the healthiest fattest and strongest chance up to date to help you fullfill your dream to become a mother.
Honey, it does suck that you have no snowbabies, but take 1 cycle at a time, and each day as it's own journey, and you will be so much stronger than I have been.
BJ81, not long untill the 10th............. we will all be here for you, you will be amased at how slow days go so quickly XXXX
We are all here for you XX
Share, don't even pee on that stick!!!! Allow me, atleast for this month, to hold the record of POAS and freaking out!! XXX!!!XXX
Moonflower, I have been thinking of you all day honey. Allow yourself to greive as much as you need to, I promise I will be here to help dust you off when you are ready. Take care, and keep in touch XXXXX
Well my BT is tomorrow, not that excited or hopefull, but I will do it. Thank you ladies for all of your support over the last 3 weeks, I have been a complete nutcase of a mess. Just glad tomorrow it will all be over. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
to the mad house. 
I hope that you enjoy your stay here. I know from personal experience the ladies are all wonderful and will really help you get through this. 
Sharee you just nearly made me wet myself.....that was the best laugh I've had in ages, exactly what I needed! I noticed that before and just thought......um ok, maybe I missed something. Hahahaha. Nice work xxx
(not from my mouth...........) Anyway......
we will all be here for you, you will be amased at how slow days go so quickly XXXX
Allow me, atleast for this month, to hold the record of POAS and freaking out!! XXX!!!XXX
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