I just keep telling myself that if I want to get pg, then unlike normal women I have to try everything I possily can.....I'm often mega ****ed off about the IVF, and especially about getting pg last month but only to have my 12th surgery to end it!!!! I'm really trying my best, I've got tears in my eyes now.........(pulling myself together)...

BUT I feel better each time knowing that I AM doing something about it, taking some control and hoping/praying/wishing for a baby.

Also hoping that my determiniation doesn't ruin my marriage and my relationship with my daughter!!!

I avoid people who are pg, family friends anyone......I need to, just so that I can cope......