I know it's frustrating to make everyone wait... but I think I'm just going to accept my circumstances and wait this one out.

I've realised that everything about this whole infertility thing is teaching me to be more patient... and those times when I try to fight it and regain control and do things on my terms, is when I wind up in trouble... like my hideous experience with the provera.

In trying to deal with the anxiety problems I've had over the last few weeks, I've realised that being calm and accepting, rather than fighting things is the best way to be.

Every time I have had problems with my health, it has seemed that God is wanting to teach me something. With having Chronic Fatigue Syndrome I learned to take time out and rest with God, with the arthritis troubles I've had for so long, I'm learning to do things with God's strength and not mine. I feel that the infertility is teaching me to be patient and accept that things happen in God's time, not mine... and these blood test results are just one more little drop in the whole big lesson I have to learn.

Accepting it, giving it up and moving on I feel so much calmer and able to focus on things that need to be done right now, so I shall wait... and I hope I don't sound too much like a fruit loop there!

BW