Hi Ladies After all the excitement of buying the blue clothes and seeing him on the 19 week scan the outcome is no good.

Here goes Last week i was sick and had a bleed so i rang my doc and he said come in the next day so i went in and he checked all seemed ok so he asked me to have a BT and urine test for infection,come a few days later i called them thinking they would call me if something was wrong,well it turned out i had a infection so they asked me to take these tablets that my chemist guy said was to strong for pregnant women but i had to listen to my OB so i took them,ladies that night i had slight contractions but because they were not painful i didnt take notice,well come the next morning my waters broke yeh they b*****Y broke i was sooo shocked because this sort of things dont happen to me i have never had any problems with my other pregnancies.My DH rushed me to the hospital and the doctors said there is nothing they can do because all my water is gone and they cant help a 20 week baby he needs to be 24 weeksmy heart just dropped i felt sad and angry at my OB,so i prayed he will survive another 4 weeks.Ladies it only got worse the tube ended up coming out of me,but he was still alive the docs were amazed but they told me to make a decision as if we keep going i will get infected and the baby is still going to die anyway.Oh gosh so now it was up to me,it was the hardest decision as how can i pull the plug on my baby boy.We had to make up our mind so i thought let him go back to god and be in heaven,and ladies after i told the docs he died.I went through labour 1.5hrs but i had my family with me,we all prayed and said our last goodbys.I will always miss him,i will always love him.I think he was to good for this world so god took him back.