Tootie,

Excellent news about little tiger, bring on more kicks i say. You hardly vented to us at all. You have listed to all the stuff that we say when swinging around certain emotions and still always manage to give great advice with a kind word. You are truly one of a kind.

Financial Planning hey. Good work on getting your diploma. I am not going to be doing that. I decided that i wanted to have kids more IYKWIM. Lol about being a clean freak. As for the legs in the air it sounds like you never had to do that anyway......and i only have my bum on a pillow with my knees bent feet firmly on the bed. A little more lady like (not to mention comfortable). Well i will do whatever it takes even if it was headstands although i was never very good at those LOL. I guess that you can tell that i am feeling a bit lighter now. Still having a crushingly horrible day but at least i can smile now - i couldnt do that this morning. I hear what you say about facing the grief head on and not running from it. Its just so hard when you always seem to feel like this, just at varying degrees but i know that you know that. When you said horrible childless life. That is exactly how i feel right now. I feel like my one chance ended with her death and i will never be blessed with it again. Now that i have said that i will probably get pregnant within the next few months. Heres hoping anyway.

Glad that your anxiety has been eased for the time being.

Chat again soon

Love Sarah