Oh it must be such a tricky situation......emotions will be quiet raw at the moment and they will be grieving... maybe some time is needed, but if you're sister only lost her baby a couple weeks ago and you're 12 weeks pregnant its not like you intentally went out and got pregnant just to hurt her.
I know the hurt you can feel when you have lost a baby (well not at that late stage) but when you see a pregnant woman or a family member pregnant....you are grieving and want you're baby back and then you see a woman pregnant and want what she has...but thats not you're fault.......i personally dont think you have done anything wrong at all, it might be hard for her to see you at the moment, but i dont think she or you're other family members should blame you just for being pregnant. Sounds liek you are a very understanding and caring person so they should understand you havent gone out of you're way to hurt anyone.
All i can say is give it some time and maybe try and approach it later on.....it might be hard for her for quiet a while..even throughout you're whole pregnancy...or maybe if she falls pregnant again it might ease some of it.
Thats my personal experience anyways. Dont know what it is like to loose a baby that late in a pregnancy. I lost mine at 9 weeks...
I think shes being selfish, of course she's hurt and going to take alot of time to be able to grieve her lost son, but she shouldn't treat you like that, none of this is your fault...
Its like not celebrating someones elses marriage because yousr is falling apart. Shes being unreasonable, Just give them all time I guess and dont let them affect your own happiness about bub....
I'm nearly 20 weeks pg with our 2nd child, conceived 6 months after DS died. I still sometimes struggle with other people's pregnancies. There's nothing rational about it. It's grief and fear we'll lose this one too. Maybe there's resentment that other people can take for granted pregnancy = live baby.
I dont have a sister so dont understand that relationship. I can imagine if I had one who got pregnant within a month or 2 of my baby dying that I'd feel devastated. I dont know. As she lost her bub at 28wks, she was still living through the remaining 12 wks til her due date. It's a thing we do. It's perfectly normal. During the time she should have still been growing her baby, she was mourning her loss - the baby itself and the pregnancy. She would have been completely immersed in grief. There's not much chance she could be rational about it.
There may be other issues involved. This was her first, you're pregnant with your 3rd. Fear they may not be able to have a live baby. Previous history between the 2 of you.
You're not to blame for how she deals with her grief or for you lashing out at you. It's sad she's acting like you've done something to deliberately hurt her. It's not rational, it's grief and fear and jealousy and more grief. As if you'd conceive a much wanted, loved child to spite someone, let along your grieving sister. Maybe talk to your Mum about it. She's mourning her grandchild and grieving for her daughter. If you mention how hurt you are and you just want this baby to be loved as well. She'll come around.
I dont think you can do anything with your sister except give her time to grieve. Maybe write her a letter telling her you never meant to hurt her. That you're grieving for her etc. You can only put it out there. It's up to her how she deals with it. Dont be surprised if she never wants to have anything to do with your new baby. For her, s/he will be a constant reminder of what she's lost, through no fault of you or the baby.
I hope some of that helped a little with understanding.
Huge babe. First of all CONGRATULATIONS on your pregnancy! Awesome chrissy present for you this year!
I'm so sorry this is happening to you and your family hun. I haven't had a late loss, but i have had 3 mc and i have a close friend who has lost twins (she is on BB) at 24 weeks.
I have sorta been on both sides of the fence with this....When i lost my daughter(at 12 weeks last year) my mum was pregnant too- we were due 10 days apart. I won't lie, it was really hard and i couldn't speak to her for a couple of weeks afterwards....BUT i tried not to make her feel bad because i knew she felt horrible too. I ended up being at the birth of my little sister and i am so glad i was
With my friend i felt horrible telling her, as she struggled with infertility as well as the loss of her babies. I told her i wouldn't shove it in her face, and if she couldn't be around me to just tell me and i wouldn't be offended at all. Although it hurt like hell for her, she got up and hugged me and said congratulations and has been nothing but supportive throughout my whole pregnancy, because she loves me and is my friend.
Now she's pregnant too I'm making her get pg belly photo's done with me lol.
I am sorry for your sisters loss, but it is unfair for you to feel persecuted by your family. You obviously understand that she wouldn't want to know about your pg right now, which is fair enough, but to cut you conpletely out of her life is really harsh. I hope your family wakes up to themselves, and thinks about what they are doing.
From a rational point of view you didn't wake up the morning after your sisters loss and say i think i'll have another baby, because that'll rub it in thier face?
I hope you guys can talk and work things out. Huge hugs, and im sorry if i rambled!
You have every right to celebrate your pregnancy and your family should be happy for you I can understand your sister on the other hand, not feeling happy about it all. She would be hurting so badly. Give her time... she will come around.
It's an awful situation for you and not fair on you either
Congratulations on your pregnancy - I'm stoked for you
Sorry for your sister's and your families loss xox
Maybe she was initially hurt that you weren't the one to tell her and her grief is just adding to her reaction?
Could she feel rejected and/or abandoned by you because you didn't tell her the news yourself? She may already feel alone and distanced by having gone through this experience and not having anyone close who has gone through the same thing?
Were you sparing your own feelings as well by getting your Mother to tell her, so as to not have to deal with her reaction and emotions? I can totally understand how hard it would be to give her that news and I would quite possibly have done the same thing, so there's no judgement from me. Just a suggestion as to how your sister may see it.
I know the loss of a baby/child is hard on entire families, so big hugs to you and I hope it works out for you and your sister xox
What a hard position for you to be in. Hugs and congratulations on your pg.
Firstly, as the others have said, your sister is dealing with a very deep, very painful grief. A grief so intense that she is not physically able to connect with you or your pg, because you have the one thing she would give anything to have, and that cuts her like a knife inside. I dont think it is wrong or unfair that she resents you at this time because at the moment she can only see the fact that you are pg and she is not, when she should be. But one day perhaps she may regret the way she is treating you now.
Of course it isnt fair that your pg is being ignored when it shouldnt be. I would be devastated too, and I guess there is no win-win here. However your mum should be doing more to celebrate your pg, because this new baby deserves it. You should not feel bad in any way that you conceived this baby when you did. You have a right to live the life you want, and you did consider her feelings by asking your mum to tell your sister.
TBH if I were in your sister shoes I would feel exactly the same way she does. Well I have no idea what it would feel like as I haven't had a stillborn baby but I think I would feel how she does. I personally would want space from my pregnant sister and not want to see you or speak to you unless it was on my terms. To me it would be a constant reminder of what you have and I'd assume if I were in your sisters shoes got so easily and what I didn't have. I imagine the hurt would be soul shattering regardless of weather she knew you were trying or not. If she knew you were trying she probably has been worried about an announcement for sometime and if she didn't then it would probably be a huge shock.
I HATED my best friend when she announced she was going to try for a baby and then a month later when she fell pregnant just after I lost an early pregnancy after 2yrs trying. I did not expect her to not try but I guess at the same time I wanted to be first as I was trying so long and in my eyes it was my turn. It was a real kick in the guts every moment I thought of her, saw her status of facebook etc. I rarely spoke to her for the duration of her pregnancy. I couldn't imagine how I would feel if I had lost my baby in the 3rd trimester that was just after a m/c and infertility.
I wouldn't write her anything other then say how sorry you are that things have turned out this way or get your mum to remind her. For me (and I know everyone is different) I'd ask your mum to say I had no idea what she was going through, your sorry for her hurt and you love her and will be their when she is ready. That maybe a week or years away. If she has said she wants not to speak or see you I'd respect those wishes. I would however tell your mother how you feel and the lack of support from your family.
I agree with Junglemum that your mum probably feels your sister needs her the most so is giving her all the support she can. I don't think its that she would mean to make you miss out but perhaps by giving you support its fueling your sisters pain.
CONGRATULATIONS on your pregnancy. I'm sorry your whole family has been through such a tragedy which has put a dampener on what should be a very exciting time in all of your lives.
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