Hi Nae Nae,

I just posted a new thread ( so I thought ....) and then I came across your new one and it's almost a carbon copy of yours !!
I'm just so lost in this website, I think I'm posting in the right spot but I don't think I am...

Anyway, wanted to tell you I feel just like you about xmas coming up, and I'm sending you a big hug . I know it really sucks to feel this way, but I think this is all part of our grieving still for our little one.

I seem to be seeing prego women everywhere, and I mean, EVERYWHERE, so I really dont know where I'm gonna do my xmas shopping....by the way, I haven't started yet..

I'm getting very emotional ATM because my due date hasn't arrived yet, and sometimes I still feel pregnant. With my big fibroid, I actually look 6 months pregnant, and when the pregnant women give me that knowing smile, I feel like shouting to them 'I wish I was pregnant like you !'.

Anyway hun, don't do anything you don't want to and have as big or little xmas as you want to. And don't feel guilty that you don't feel like celebrating like the rest of your family. They're not going through the grief like you.

Bib big hugs to you, thinking of you at this crappy time.

Beata xxxxxxxxx