Hi NaeNae,

I think that's beautiful that you dream of your little girl, I always ask Joshua to visit me in my dreams but I haven't had one of him yet, maybe soon.......I hope.

Al loves xmas too much not to celebrate it ( he is so xmasy but I'm not overly xmasy ) but he's got 3 grown up kids from his previous merriage so he loves to celebrate it with them. Which I can totally understand, I just don't mask my feeling as well as he does. I know he was devestated when we lost Joshua, occasionally he'll talk about him.

Oh well, here comes xmas whether we feel like celebrating or not, I know that our litle angels will be nearby.

My friend told me she got me a Joshua tree, so I'm looking forward to planting it and creating a spot for Josh. Right now I have him at home with us.

Love and hugs

Beata xxxxxxx