Hi summery,

You asked for my story but I'm unsure it will be very sensitive.... I have four healthy bubs and one on the way. I had a missed miscarriage at 12weeks after DD1 that I still to this day am shocked at how badly I took it, the devastation will never leave me, but now I feel that I can better relate( in a small way) to people that have had losses.

My ectopic was after my third child. It's was poorly managed by nearly everyone involved, I had to discharge myself from one hospital and present to another only to rupture as I went into theatre. Again at the time I didn't understand why but now after a few years I can see how it changed me.

Again I am so sorry for your losses, I wish there was someone that could take away your pain and more then anything I wish you could fast forward to the day you have your take home baby in your arms. I do understand that feeling of 'I don't want to be that person' but if there is any place that you can be yourself, and talk openly its here on Bellybelly, use the support here, tell your story. Tho only give of yourself what you can, sometimes you can get Beverly bogged down in everyone else's sad stories. So at this precious time, be selfish, take what you need and give only when you can!

Always an ear here too if you want to pm me

Hugs

Ps I tried to send this as a PM but your inbox is full