Deb, I too am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Your story is mine and unfortunately so many other beautiful women on this website. I am so terribly sorry that you will never get to hold your precious Eggbert in your arms but as the others have said, your little one will know he was loved more in his short time with you than so many others are in a lifetime.

You should write your book. It should be compulsory reading for anyone who thinks they are "qualified" to offer advice to a woman who has just gone through one of the hardest experiences anyone will ever have to face. How dare anyone say "its for the best". The only possible thing that could be "for the best" is for your beautiful baby to be born fit and well and placed in the arms of his wonderful mother. Anything less is a tragedy.

I wish you and your family love and support over what will be such a difficult time for you. You are obviously an incredibly strong woman, but you don't have to always be strong. I hope that there are people in your real world that step in and offer you the support, love and care you so desperately need and deserve right now.

You will have your baby one day. I know you will.